yesterday i don't remember

you came over and we sat in the kitchen
you said a lot of things
i acted excited
you left

i bought an organic juiced drink
when i got home i sat in a chair

feels like nothing is really happening right now

i said i don't want to go to the party
we were in the kitchen
i was bored
you said are you sure you don't want to come
you left

i was in my bed holding socks
i had a shirt on
it was morning
i thought it would be night later

i spend a lot of time in my bedroom
it's better

my legs are functional

today i sat on my bed and looked at myself in a mirror
yesterday i showered

i'm sitting in a chair
i ate a smoothie this morning

my roommate took adderall
he said he felt depressed
he gave me two adderall

i called my mom

i do the same things regardless of how i feel

kind of

i'm going to sleep now

on my way home there was a group of raccoons
i tried to be interested
i couldn't see them after awhile
i walked home

you said do you want to watch naked lunch tonight
i said yes

we were outside in a dusk
a mild one

the thought comforts me

you said do you want to walk with me to my car to get naked lunch
i said where is your car
you said at the park
i said that's too far

i said we should just watch the movie another night

you left

i want to be a starfish

this poem is called apathy

this is pointless
i feel small

i felt excited
and quickly felt neutral
and thought that i feel neutral
i felt excited
i felt neutral
i felt excited and walked somewhere